Sifting through the pages...

Back to the drawing board. Here is a blog from over a year ago that I never posted. It is funny how things happen, more to come, for real this time.

8/22/12 6:00PM 
Now more than 3 years later, I come across this inspirational blog I started writing and feel inspired to continue what I started a long time ago. 

 
Still residing in the mountains of Winter Park, CO 3 years and counting I am no less captivated by the glorious mountains and sky that smiles upon me daily.  I find myself open here. Open to the life that unfolds every moment to the next.  Which is why I chose to stay here.  It is not easier living here. It's actually quite challenging when it comes to budgeting finances to work off of seasonal incomes.  I currently have more jobs than I can count.   I am a cocktail server at one bar, a waitress at another, a yoga instructor and a marketing consultant.  All while still trying to keep my design and alterations business Lavender Elephant afloat.  I find it fun actually, I like being busy, and if I wasn't I would find a way.  However, financially I would love to be more stable.  But for some reason I have a feeling that I am not the only one that wishes for better in their financial life.  And I choose to dream, I choose to continue doing exactly what I love in order to keep me smiling and loving free.  

I have seen parts of the world, felt other parts of the world, embraced other parts of the world.  And introduced myself wholly and openly to other spirituality's.  This contagious feeling to see and understand what keeps the smiles on faces across the world is what I like to talk about.  How an individual with no electricity no water and barely any food...is smiling.  This is what I would like to share most.

I have been home for a year now, incorporating my experiences abroad and allowing what I have learned to become tools, and from those tools see how much easier it is to exist in everyday life, as being, existing, floating in the present.  I am still along the path where these tools are tools, and my dream projection is for these tools to meld into how I choose to exist regardless of the day, time, event.  This all means, that my desire to take fear out of my equation of existence entirely.  Of course I have learned that this is part of happiness there is sadness.  But I am talking about that fear that gets us into trouble, the fear that steers us the wrong way.  The fear that disables our growth longer than it should.  The best part is knowing that I still have this fear floating in my life time to time...which withholds me from being true.  I want my heart to hold love and kindness as it does already but to keep hold of this love and kindness in those crossroads and still smile upon the situation. 

Someone once told me,
"Energy is not negative until it is responded to with negativity.  We have a choice how to respond to energies"